Friday, March 27, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Hey There 2
Where are you?
There are so many things I want to tell you.
I long to breathe the same air you do.I want to hear your heart beat and voice.
Que triste.Que lastima.
I pray for us.
I never wanted to leave you and what I know now is-
I never could and never will.
I am still right here.
All I know now is
I know my beloved's name.
Look, where we are now?
I am well.
After losing you,
I am unbreakable.
I survived and love you more everyday.
Not a day goes by I dont think of you.
Despite everything, I love you and I always will.
One year later, where are we?
How ironic like in "Lost" a disaster blew us apart and I still dont know if you survived.
I dont know
if you made it.
When I left our house, I dreamnt that while I was driving that everything around me turned completely white, and my truck was spinning out of control like it did when I hit ice on the bridge last winter. I tried to gain control of the truck and thought I had crashed and that I was dying.The seat belt was choking me. Then suddenly, a voice said to me, to hold on help was coming and for me to let go.
And I did.
You were right
I have an entourage and I have plenty more than most people.
I look at our pictures.
What the fuck happened?
I was the happiest I had ever been in my entire life.
I look and see who I was and who I am now.
You would be WOWED if you could hear my story.
We could sit for hours talking
and I could show you what else I can do now.
These are extraordinary times
and dangerous times.
The preparation was the same as the test.
More than tell the truth,
and live the truth.
I am the woman I have always wanted to be.
And I know you know.
You see me.
Its just that way between us.
I forgive you.
Please forgive me.
May we find a peaceful place for our hurt in our hearts.
Believe me when I tell you this,
I want you to not hurt anymore.
I send you joy and a breath of love.
You will never be alone.
You have me.
Tug on my spirit.
Its just that way between us
since we were little girls under las mimosas cantanado
Please find your way home.
Mucho blessings for your birthday
and the rest of your life,